Intentions for 2010
A wonderful friend said to me yesterday: "I bet you have some kick-ass intentions for 2010, and that you're going to make them all come true." I do know that I am very happy with what I have right now, and that is a great way to start a new year.
So here we go:
- Experience and practice abundance.
- Be a spiritual and emotional guide for others.
- Be a loving and supportive partner to myself and my partner(s).
- Take steps toward writing my first book.
- Listen to the uncomfortable spot in my back and let it guide me to yoga or whatever else is needed to relieve stress.
- Listen to my muses and create, create, create.
- Continue to accept that I love coffee! Yes, I do.
- Continue to accept that I like to go to bed early sometimes.
- Get involved in professional partnership(s).
- Finish reconciling my new values with my past.
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.: posted by Vera 
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New, biodegradable phone
 It has been almost three years since I got a new phone, and I finally just upgraded. For over two years I had thought that my next phone was going to be an iPhone, but I was wrong. I decided to stick with Sprint and choose from one of their smartphones. What I got was the Samsung Reclaim, which is biodegradable and made almost exclusively out of recyclable materials. It arrived at my house yesterday in a nice brown package made out of recycled materials.
It was free for me with a new two-year contract, and I have a better "data" plan now which is slightly cheaper than my old plan. The reason I have a data plan now is that I can do all kinds of data stuff with my new phone! Like:
- Read and write email
- Read and write Facebook messages and status updates
- Get directions
- Find nearby coffee shops, yoga studios, etc. (it has GPS)
- Do Google searches and surf the web
 It's funny because I have been wanting to do all these things with my phone for YEARS, and several times I had gotten a new phone expecting to be able to do those things, but for some reason it never worked out the way I had hoped. This time, though, I really am able to do all those things - I tried!
And once again, I am said that I can't transfer my text messages from one phone to the next. My old phone and I have been through a lot together. I was completely heart-broken when I first got it; then I slowly started healing. I have gone through all its different-colored face plates, starting with green, then pink, then blue, then black, and in the end back to green. It has an editable little greeting message on the main screen, which sometime in 2007 I changed to "I'm gonna bite you." A few months later I changed it to "It's okay," and that's still what it says today. Because it is.
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.: posted by Vera
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Mysterious present
Thank you to whomever sent me the book Dear Diary
from my wishlist. There was no note to tell me who sent it.
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.: posted by Vera
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So much love
On my birthday earlier this year I had set the intention "to spread love and to surround myself and my life with love." I decided to use "<33" as a symbol of that, which embodies both the number 33 (my new age) and a double heart. My friend Lizzy had given me a gift bag for my birthday, which had lots of <33's on it, and on which she had written "Verabug is loved and full of love."
And that is becoming truer than ever. When in the past there have been many times where I felt a lack of love, where I was hurting and feeling needy and deprived, I now have two men in my life that I absolutely adore and who adore me. My new boyfriend, Jeremy, and I confessed our love to each other last night, and it was probably the most honest and true and mutual confession of love I have ever experienced. And of course there is also Kean whom I still love just as much, if not more than before. When I told Kean that Jeremy and I were in love, his reaction was
"I am happy. You are spreading more love in the world, and I think you're a good person to do that."
I am pretty sure that I would not be able to feel as positively if Kean fell in love with someone else, but I am willing to cross that bridge when we get there because I know that Kean will hold my hand, much like I am holding his now.
Jeremy's presence has definitely made me more relaxed and supportive with respect to Kean's external affairs. Since I now feel especially loved and taken care of, where there was a lot of jealousy, fear and insecurity before, I now feel a lot more encouraging and benevolent about Kean having other lovers. Both Kean and I see this as a very positive development.
This situation is not free of complications and challenges, but in a way, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
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.: posted by Vera
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